I wondered, "Were they as nervous as I was? Are they excited?" I drove back home and changed my clothes into a black and white dress. "Do I look like I had 3 kids? Is that something they even care about..how I look in a dress?" Then the thoughts only a surrogate has ever had start popping into my mind.. thoughts like "Oh Hi..nice to meet you both..may I carry your baby in my uterus for you?" Like seriously...who thinks that? Surrogates. Thats who.
We went to a restaurant in Sunnyvale called Faz. Its actually the restaurant my parents were married at..you could even see the garden from our table. I was calm the whole ride there..but as I sat at the table I subconsciously began twisting my hands and fingers. I said to Jason "I think I'm starting to get nervous now." and he laughed and said "I noticed..your starting to fidget." I debated a glass of wine, but I could feel a headache coming on and knew a glass would throw me over the edge and into the land of head pain. Then as I looked at Jason, he said "I think that's them...yup" and I had a second where I prepared to turn my head and look. One of those moments where you know everything is about to change. And there they were..walking towards me with smiles on their faces. It was like everyone in the restaurant disappeared into gray and they were two pillars of color. I broke into a huge smile and knew this was going to be great. We ordered our food, and talked about so many things. How they both grew up in the midwest the same as my husband and I was pleasantly surprised that my Jason talked about as much as I did the whole dinner! They had a lot in common being midwest boys living in CA. ;)
We talked about my last surrogacy, about breast feeding, about family, and travel. It was an easy flowing conversation filled with laughter. I was relaxing with each minute.
We are all hoping to get together again soon, this time in San Francisco. I can't wait to see them again, and I can see this being another amazing journey.
(Jason, Me, IF#1, IF#2)
